Be There

Take a look at me,
look through these eyes,
See the pain,
That I've been through,
Then see the reasons why,

Cease the reason to be,
Through the hurt and the lies,
An empty shell remains,
But you say,
you already knew,
As I give out a sigh,

Don't say I told you so,

Don't say that you knew,

Don't wait till it's over,

To say I told you so,

I did it by myself,
I released the pain,
I broke away,
I now feel no hurt,
The wounds,
are now healed,
And just scares remain,
Vowing never to return,
To abuse,
Hell again,

Now I'm free from the torment,
Yet you say you already knew,
Never saying a word,
You just sat there,
and watched,

The pain I went through,
You knew what they were like,
You never said a word,
What do you need,

A BLOODY MIC? 

Listen to the screams,
Hear me cry,
Open my eyes,
and show me why,
If I need someone to talk to,
Whenever your son or daughter needs you,
Don't turn away,
Show that you care,
Be there.






Copyright © 2011 John Bevan

That One Last Breath

I lay in your arms,
and took,
That,
One,
Last,
Breath,
My heart was yours,
As he came,
Death,

I kissed you,
in that,
one,
final,
moment,
Stuck in that scene,
Of a tender moment,

Know that I'll love you,
In life as I will in death,
Forever think of you,
As I take,
my last breath,

I'll watch over you,
Protect you from harm,
And you know I would,
Every day,
hour,
minute,
second,
I'll be there for you,
No matter where,

Just remember,
I love you,
And I'll always be there,
right by your side,
When you think no one cares,

Look up and you'll see me,
One of those stars,
in the sky,
Never to far,
but always there. 
Believe in me,
You'll know who I am.




Copyright © 2011 John Bevan

Turn Around

 I know I'm in your way,
With these words you're not speaking,

There's things you need to say,
secrets you're still keeping,

I know it's not your fault,
Inside my head I'm screaming,

Been down this road before,
and my heart keeps on bleeding,

No! I can't take this anymore,
you're pushing me away,
No! It hurts to the core,

I'm falling deeper each day,
Like life has no meaning,

Turn around,
See these tears in my eyes,

Don't leave now,
Listen to how I feel inside,

Turn around,
I don't want to hide,

As my head looks up to the sky,
for the way I feel inside,

Turn around,
see these tears that I cry,
Don't leave me now,
with the pain I feel inside.






Copyright © 2011 John Bevan

Artistic License: Poetry in Motion

Artistic License: Poetry in Motion: For my latest poems of love, hurt, faith and dreams. : http://www.amazon.co.uk/Sorrowed-Mind-Tomorrows-Dream-ebook/dp/B005Y6DGPQ/ref=sr_1_5?...

Poetry in Motion

For my latest poems of love, hurt, faith and dreams. :http://www.amazon.co.uk/Sorrowed-Mind-Tomorrows-Dream-ebook/dp/B005Y6DGPQ/ref=sr_1_5?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1319405360&sr=1-5

Take Control

Here I am in this lonely room,
Trying to forget my past,
Of love that I thought would last,
I hurt my heart and soul,
With the secrets I didn't know,

Everyday I thought you were there,
Then I realised,
you just didn't care,
Turning your back,
as you walked away,
There was nothing left,
that I could say,

Sitting in this lonely room,
Thinking of what I had done,
Each time I gave my heart,
to someone,
I bleed out of control,
For the things I didn't know,

Everyday I thought you were there,
Then I realised,
you just didn't care,
Turning your back,
as you walked away,
There's nothing left,
that I could say,

I've got to move on,
pull myself up from this hole,
I've got to move on,
Regain my life and take control,

Pick myself up at the end of the day.




Copyright © 2011 John Bevan 

The Rising

To find you,
Is all I ever wanted to do,
To be with you,
I hope you can see,
You've touched,
The very heart of me,

I see you in my dreams,
Will you save me,
From this deep blue sea,
Cause I feel like I'm drowning,
Things may not be as they seem,

People talking,
Twisting their lines,
Something different,
Time after time,
Never showing,
Giving their all,
A new excuse,
A new story line,

Awaken from this dream,
Clear the nightmares from your head,
Reading the stories,
That are read,
See through the lies,
The twists and turns,
That are laid in the mind,

I have no secrets to keep,
No lies to tell,
I've swam in the deep,
And arose from hell,
Your heart I would keep,
And treasure it well,
With a love that's pure,
And is known well.




Copyright © 2010 John Bevan

Don't Speak!

My ex sent a message asking me to call her the other day. Thinking that it might be about my daughter I phoned. She proceeded to go in to a long conversation how her ex psychotic boyfriend has started to contact her through Fb. I said why don't you get in touch with the police and then block him off Fb. She replied I know I should but I've been slagging him off as well and messing with his head. I am totally done with all that crap yet she still feels the need to contact me each time something goes wrong trying to drag me back in to it. I can honestly say that it's starting to make me ill. I have enough troubles of my own. Maybe it's better that way but not talking about things leads to secrets and I've been there and wore the tea-shirt. It only leads to problems in one way or another. She should be talking to her parents or partner if she's still with him.

Sadness and Frustration

I remember all the sadness and frustration,
I remember all the pain I felt before,
To let it go is all I've wanted,
The pain and hurt I hate it,
The feeling is there within my core,


I remember all the sadness and frustration,
I remember all the pain and more,
She left me bleeding without explanation,
Left dying as I fall,


The visions of you are now forsaken,
only to see your face in my dreams,
Won't be long before I'm forgotten,
the words that are written I've seen,
No longer a vision in a dream
Just a distant memory it seems,


I remember all the sadness and frustration,
I remember the pain I've felt before,
just to find the one to hold my heart,
I know that I need to carry on.




Copyright © 2010 John Bevan

Suddenly

Suddenly you were there,
Shining silent love,
In my dreams,
I hold you there,
For that moment,
That moment when I'll be there,
I can feel you,
through that cool breeze of air,

Suddenly,
My heart is at ease again,
Suddenly,
There is no fear,
I'll fall again,

I see you,
as if you were here,
It soothes my mind,
Behind my mist filled eyes,

You are,
the summer light to me,
The sky is clear,
as I feel you next to me,

I dream of you,
In my arms again,
The love I seek,
I can see it in your eyes,
I can hear it,
when you speak to me,

Shining like love,
the flame I see,
I feel it deep inside of me,
And you,
You are there holding on,
I know now,
that it had never gone.



Copyright © 2010 John Bevan

Feel, See, Heal, Touch

Feel the sorrow,
I've felt inside,
See the hurt,
as my arms lie open wide,
Heel the pain,
as the tears I cry,

Touch my heart,
with the love I try to find,
Need to heal,
the scars of my mind,

Feel my touch,
As I lie with you,
See the beauty,
that I see in you,
Heal this heart,
with the things you do,
Touch the very soul of me too,
Needing,
Wanting to feel you. 






Copyright © 2010 John Bevan

Find Me

Look inside of me,
see the things I fear,
They're inside my mind,
Is this meant to be?
Is this what's to become of me?
Trapped in fear,

Time has past,
and you're still there,
Deep inside,
Screaming,
Hitting,
Killing me,
Set me free,
Release me,
Forever pulling me down,
Why can't you see?
Why can't you hear?
I try to tell you what I fear,
and what I'm trying to find,
Open your eyes,
see the pain I feel,
The tears,

Can't break free,
from these feelings,
The pain I feel inside,
have never been kind,
Twisting thorns,
wrapped around my heart,
The torture,
goes on in my mind. 




Copyright © 2010 John Bevan

The Loneliest Time

The loneliest time is waiting,
waiting to be with you,
Sitting here thinking of you,

My fading picture,
the invisible touch,
Wanting to see her,
Miss her to much,

Patiently waiting,
going out of my mind,
Unable to be there,
Just waiting for time,

Control is taken,
as they pull you apart,
Saying you love her,
with a bleeding heart,

Distance destroys you,
Each day,
Week,
Month,
you're apart,
Clasping on to memories,
that you held with your heart,

She drifts further away,
each time you say goodnight,
Your only wish,
is to hold her tight,

Never let go,
of the dreams you have,
Cling on to them for life,
and the love you have,
She knows you wait,
for the longest day,
Just to be with her,
In a loving way,

Never forget the times we had,
keep your head up,
don't be sad,
When our lives begin,
they'll be the best we have. 




Copyright © 2010 John Bevan

To Be With You

You welcomed me with open arms,
held me close,
kept me warm,
You sheltered me from the storm,

Your smile lights up my life,
Each time I look in your eyes,
the warmth I feel inside,
The pain that we both once knew,
from the abuse we'd both suffered,
and being through,

But you knew,
The love I have for you,
Was complete,
Total,
True,

Now I sit here,
Waiting to hold you in these arms,
To be by your side,
To say I do,
To love you all my life,
and protect you from harm,

Am I a hero,
No,
And I would never claim to be so,
I just love you with all of my heart,
Sit with you beneath the stars,
and kiss you where you are,

I'd move mountains,
part the sea,
Just to be with you,
You and me,
They say young love,
but it's never to late,
I'd stay with you past the heavens gate,
I am your friend,
Your love,
Your soul mate.



Copyright © 2010 John Bevan